Failed recipe. :(

Last saturday, I baked chocolate chips cookies. It was a big failure because it was so sweet. I ate one and I got dizzy. My whole say it was too sweet too. I don't think it was my measurement of the ingredients went wrong because I had double checked before adding into the bowl. I had to admit with thick-skin that I was more organized and systematic as well as careful after a few times of baking experience. So there were low chance that the fault was on me. I decided to put the blame on others then.

1. Problem with the recipe
Maybe the proportion of the sugar to the flour was incorrect.
2. Chef perferences
If the proportion on the recipe is correct, then it must be the perferences of the chef. He is in a big shape so maybe he like it sweeter.
3. Bad quality sugar
I bought those NTUC brand sugar because they were cheaper. Could that be a factor? Less likely.
4. My skills
I think I could have mix longer than expected but I don't see how is that related to the high sweetness of the cookies. Or could be my measurement which have a 1% possibility.

Anyway, I had better recipe of chocolate chips cookies now. The recipe was by a famous female baker in the western country. It should be more reliable because she had released baking recipes books. If the bakes went wrong again, then it could be due to my bad skills.

Even though the bakes were not nice, but the process was very fun. How I hope I got my own designed kitchen. I had to wait till I am finacially rich before I am able to own my personal flat and renovate a white kitchen. I want my kitchen to be spakling clean, tidy, organized, spacious and white.

For the time being, I think I just baked my specialised sugar cookies, muffins and cupcakes. I shall stop experimenting on other types of cookies because they don't like to co-operate with me. I would also like to try on fondant and icing too.

I need a digital timer desperately too because the oven timing is not specific. I need the most accurate timing to monitor the first bake and keep it the same for the remaining bakes. You probably don't know what I am saying. HAHA! I need 2 big and hard plastic mixing bowl too.


All the dry ingredients.


Mixed dry ingredients.


Butter added.


Mixing it. It become lighter in color!


Adding the flour.


Ready to bake them.


Baked goods. Looked not so nice, taste TOO SWEET!

don't read if you have a phobia for wordy, poor english and nonsense.


once again, i am having this guilty feeling for skipping school too much. who asked i have poor self discipline. who asked the timing of 9.15am from the usual 9.45am to be so unappealing to me. who asked me to choose such a far polytechnic. who asked me to choose a school with pbl. who asked me to be unadpative to pbl up till the last lap. who asked i have lack of motivation. who asked the school to daily graded. who asked i got an a for this particular module which makes me think that not attending the remaining classes and i can still get good grades. who asked... who asked... all my excuses were invalid.


the school can might as well stabbed me to death. anyway it is the last lap, i think i gonna bear with it for the last lap. i will turned up obediently to school for the last three weeks but i always seems to break my promise. this is so uncontrollable because i have 0 self discipline. this shall be my 2010 resolution: perserve until i reached the dead end. this is achieveable provided that i am passionate with the thing i am doing.


come to talk about passion, now i realised the importance of passion especially in long term area like working and studying. without passion, i don't know how that person can ever survive through? passion is the time that makes one perserve through the hard times. so it means that i had no passion for my area of studies anymore? omg, that is saddening. i felt sad for the course because it was not treasured by me. i don't feel sad for myself because i love myself too much. i only allowed myself to be exposed to happiness and that's it. my life is complete.


what a nice way to twist from school to passion and to my own happiness. let's twist further then, continued from happiness. i believe that happiness level is decreased as you gets older. what caused it? human bonds and survival tools. if you get what i say, you are smart. if not, then go crack your brain about it. without this two thing, or either one, your death is nearing. that is the reality. i hate the world, in order to get hold of this two things, uglyness of human arise; all the seven deadly sins. the world out there is ugly. 100% of the people are doing it and i think only 50% are happy with the end result. the remaining 50% will live in hatred and looking for opportunites to take revenge. i fall out of the 100% because i am the observer of human nature. the bad part is since i am a human, i get to experience it too. craps.